As Fast As You Can

• 1. Where You Were

I wanna lose track of time
Just lose that sense on purpose
Play ‘til the feeling goes away
Then do the same tomorrow

I wanna do like my heroes did
Though I know verbatim’s not the way
But maybe if I am not tricked
It’ll all give me something to say

And though I’m not yet used to it
Listening seems to work
But think, try, fall, lie
And you’re back where you were

Last time you were in this headspace
There was no space for you at all
And now you’ve carved yourself an inch or two
But you’ve hit another wall

And bam you’re back again my boy
Familiar in the worst of ways
But you’ve been told what to do before
And you still waste all your days

And though I’m not yet used to it
Listening seems to work
But think, try, fall, lie
And you’re back where you were

And pride aside you’ll pay attention
‘Cause it’s what you pretend to do
And just because you said you’d change
Doesn’t make it true
No it doesn’t make it true

And though I’m not yet used to it
Listening seems to work
So think, try, fall, lie
Think, try, fall, lie
Think, try, fall, lie
And you’re back
Where you were

• 2. A Little Crazy

Maybe I’m a little crazy

Quarter to twelve and I can’t help but
Start to lose my faith
Ten to one and nothing’s begun
And now it’s getting late

Everything is gonna be alright
She says to me she says “goodnight”
Once again I’m no more than a friend
Just someone to pass the time

Five to two and all I’m gonna do
Is listen and lose control
Three to three she still cannot see
And that smile just yields insanity

Every little thought running through my head
Is either “get inside” or “get to bed”
Smile and say goodnight instead
Wake up tomorrow alone

Maybe I’m a little crazy
Or just a bit lazy
My grip as it slips
Away from me
I just say
Kiss me

Two to four won’t take it anymore
With all the damn lights turned down
Now it’s five just want to be alive
I’m beginning to hear the sound

My heart in my chest, what did I expect
With sunrise on the way
Regret hits hard and I’ve come too far
Just to save it for another day
So I say

Sweaty palms and lifeless arms
My stomach’s tied in knots
Swinging hips and glistening lips
Just telling me to stop

Told her how I feel and now it’s real
Don’t wanna walk the line anymore
With a little smile she stays a little while
As she closes my front door

Maybe I’m a little crazy
Or just a bit lazy
My grip as it slips
Away from me
I just say

Baby I’m a little crazy
Or just a bit lazy
My grip as it slips
Away from me
I just say

Kiss me

• 3. Just in Case

That day was so cold
My breath was thicker than the smoke
The snow mixed with the salt
Serpentine on the asphalt

All I have is this cloudy view
Of the naked trees and the grey afternoon
Anticipation keeps my nerves on fire

Stiff knees, lips cracked dry
Complexion of a ghost
Meets salty tears and puffy eyes
I cried and I don’t know why

And just in case you wanna leave
It’s ok, it’s ok
And just in case you don’t believe me
It’s ok, it’s ok

The words she chose to use
Slipped right through the armor protecting you
The pain distorts your face
Love never had such a bitter taste

Twenty years this fight’s been raging on
With nothing lost and nothing won
I can’t believe the things I’ve heard
Before the night’s even begun

And just in case you wanna leave
It’s ok, it’s ok
And just in case you don’t believe me
It’s ok, it’s ok
And just in case you can’t bear witness to my life
And just in case you want the easy way tonight

I sit alone paralyzed by fear
Like a child whose parent’s fights he can hear
Just waiting for morning to reappear
So we can disappear

Now the space in-between
Starts to bust at the seams
And you’re drifting away
And all that you can say is

Just in case you wanna leave
It’s ok, it’s ok
And just in case you don’t believe me
It’s ok, it’s ok
And just in case you can’t bear witness to my life
And just in case you want the easy way tonight

• 4. Face to Face

To hear your voice from far away
The computer sounds don’t sound much
Like you no way

To feel the signal pass
My voice echoing back the other way
Well babe

It’s nice to be in touch
But I wish that we could touch

‘Cause these buttons are starting to make me feel fake
And we’re ending all our sentences like we’re not face-to-face
And the funny thing is we’re both still the same
But sending sounds around-about was never the right way

And soon enough we’ll find our way in
Just like we did back in week one
On our second wind

So if we each can save a story or two
And not tell our friends everything meant for me
And meant for you

‘Cause we may feel in touch
But not by all that much

‘Cause these buttons are starting to make me feel fake
And we’re ending all our sentences like we’re not face-to-face
And the funny thing is we’re both still the same
But sending sounds around-about was never the right way

To stop because I feel that something’s wrong in this thin air
But maybe it’s just the math that’s in-between
If my silence equals either of us losing one wink of sleep than tell me
And I’ll come up with something

‘Cause these buttons are starting to make me feel fake
And we’re ending all our sentences like we’re not face-to-face
The funny thing is we’re both still the same
But sending sounds around-about was not the right way

• 5. All Along

Alone in my room
Watching love bloom in your eyes
As it withers
And dies in mine

I wish that a spark
Would light up the darkness
Illuminated, you could be the one
But no it’s too late

Now why can’t I fall?
I’ve done it before
But then I don’t think I was trying so hard

Feeling your weight
So I hesitate and
Wonder if you now know what I’m thinking

And how long will I lie here?
Pretending that I’m still trying
Forcing a fit
But I won’t admit
That I’ve known all
All along

Alone on a stage
Holding your gaze
Singing these old songs
About you

Soft words through a smile
But I’m really on trial
For stealing your heart
And handling without care

And how long will I lie here?
Pretending that I’m still trying
Forcing this fit
But I won’t admit
That I’ve known all
All along

I just want some peace tonight
Pull the same thing every time
I just want some peace
I just want some
So please, so please
Tell me

How long will I lie here?
Pretending that I’m still trying
Force this to fit
But I won’t admit
That I’ve known
I’ve known
I’ve known
All along

• 6. Extra Info

Played a show today but gave my camera away
To a girl who’d just bounce her cares away

As I watched from onstage I knew right away
With arms flailing to beats
Nothing would be recorded today

Later we would drink our stress away
And tell each other truths we might never otherwise say

Curiosity sprung the words out of our mouths
But who knows if they were meant to be told

I bet she’s thinking
Now you know what this boy’s all about
So why feel bad about these selfish explanations
Now you know that you would gladly live without
All such extraneous information

Both passed out we’ve cleared our doubt
With two hours of pastime conversation

Necessary or not seems so irrelevant at this point cause
Truth be told maybe such info should just stay secret

And I’m not saying leave me out of the loop
But some shielding could be nice now and then

And I’m thinking
Now I know what this girl’s all about
So why feel bad about over-analyzing frustration
No I know that I would gladly shed all doubt
Of all such extraneous information

And now I know all your secrets
And we both know you know mine
And who knows what this could mean ‘cause
Meaning changes from what I’ve seen
And you seem to feel the same

Let’s leave where we go from here up to somebody else ‘cause
I mean control’s so overrated

You and I can be equal monarchs for now ‘cause
One another may one day be mutually outdated

And pessimism’s not usually how I roll
But just look at the time…

Now you know what this boy’s all about
So why feel bad about these selfish explanations
Now you know that you would gladly, gladly live without
All such extraneous, watch us live without

So please don’t go and feel bad about it
You know that we’ll just go and live without it

• 7. Still Here

The room is quiet
But I am not
Particles race
But I am stopped

As motivations scream
My drive’s gotten soft
But knowing it’s there
Drops all need to talk

But I
I’m still here
And I
I still expect

So lean past my shoulder
Speed my watch up
Lean past my shoulder
Show me ‘cause
I think I know
I think I know
Think I know
But I’m wrong

Change is good
But don’t change your plans
A new idea ain’t a better one
Just another inversion in your hands

So as you reflect
On what got you here
A little boy in a little room with
A whole lot of big ideas
Big ideas

But I
I’m still here
And I
I still expect

So lean past my shoulder
Speed my watch up
Lean past my shoulder
Show me ‘cause
I think I know
I think I know
Think I know
But I’m wrong

But I
I’m still here
And I
I still expect
And I
I’m still here
But I’m, here

‘Cause I think I know
I think I know
Think I know…

But I’m wrong

• 8. 80 in Pennsylvania

Hundred miles to Mile Run
Left Jersey early left me undone
Seated alone in my own little room
Where the stereo soundtracks every move

Surrounded by people making a way
Through PA-Wilds and Chesapeake Bay
No one can see me or look inside
And I sit with myself as I sit beside

Look in the rearview
Just an unclear view
I shouldn’t look back anyway
On the horizon
I’m seeing signs that
Everything is gonna change

If I had it my way
I’d stay on the highway because
80 in Pennsylvania is beautiful today

Fighting the feeling of fury I find
For big orange cones and slow-down signs
Increasing the distance I try to reduce
‘tween the floor boards and my lead right foot

Focus, focus carries the weight
Light my bone and sit back and wait
Bellefonte blurs past the passenger frame
And I see what I see ain’t quite the same so

Look in the rearview
Just an unclear view
I shouldn’t look back anyway
On the horizon
I’m seeing signs that
Everything is gonna change

If I had it my way
I’d stay on the highway because
80 in Pennsylvania is beautiful today
Driving westward
The sky just goes on forever
And the colors make me feel
Like none of this is
This can’t be

She pulls along side
And it feels like fate
Like a tidal wave
The cars are moving again
And now she’s gone and we’re just
On the road again

If I had it my way
I’d stay on the highway ‘cause
80 in Pennsylvania it’s beautiful
Driving westward
The sky just goes on forever
And the colors make me feel
Like none of this is
This can’t be real

• 9. Nothing Wrong at All

Fooled again by the same old ghost
Just to find the one I used to know
Sacrificing what I got
For a long-gone forget-me-not

Once the logic moves aside
The sadness of the situation won’t hide
And the face you used to whimper at
Reads every emotion like fact

And I don’t know
Why I go
So back and forth
With nothing but wasted time
And a worried mind
Remembering to find
There’s nothing wrong at all
There’s nothing wrong at all

You’re in distress but still afloat
And you can see the punctured heart in your own boat
But what now if you wanna go home?
Hope she does to or leave it alone
Just leave it alone

And I don’t know
Why I go
So back and forth
With nothing but wasted time
And a worried mind
Remembering to find
There’s nothing wrong at all
There’s nothing wrong at all

Don’t look for space when you’re full
Don’t look for space when you’re full

So if you wanna confuse yourself keep going cause you’re lost
Being comatose to the good things will cost
You’re burying the good stuff with truths that can’t react
So ask yourself “Who’s really attached?”

And I don’t know
Why I go
So back and forth
With nothing but wasted time
And a worried mind
Remembering to find
There’s nothing wrong at all
There’s nothing wrong at all

• 10. Gloss & Powder

The sounds and flashing lights
They occupy my sight
Stealing bits and pieces of the moments in my life

But all that will remain
Are fragments of a brain
To reminisce and wish I hadn’t let myself become so numb

You know you can’t believe
The images you’ll see on your T.V.
Faces glazed in gloss and powder
Fake plastic smiles
And they’ll say you’re incomplete
Tell you what you need when what you need is to
Stop wasting your time

In this sedentary life
You feel like it’s alright
Embracing rapid vapid thoughts
Attention paid, attention lost

There must be much more to this than
Narcissistic wonderment
Cut the cord, embrace the panic
The air is warm, real light’s fantastic

You know you can’t believe
The images you’ll see on your T.V.
Faces glazed in gloss and powder
Fake plastic smiles
And they’ll say you’re incomplete
Tell you what you need when what you need is to
Stop wasting your time

Unplug your life, go outside
You might like it if you try
Break your modern magic mirror
Play like a child for awhile
Cut the power, this is our
Time to shine
Please don’t waste it on a lie

You know you can’t believe
The images you see on your T.V.
Faces glazed in gloss and powder
Fake plastic smiles
And they say you’re incomplete
Tell you what you need when what you need is to
Stop wasting your time
Please, please stop wasting my time
Please, please stop wasting our time

• 11. Not So Easy

Ideas swimming around
You’ve had them for years but you’re changing them now
But maybe just this once that could be alright

Beliefs say who you are
Conjured so you’re not alone with the stars
So let your guard down and let time slow down for once

But every time you look around
Hearing everyone’s sounds
And then someone comes and makes you write it all down
And when reflections are all that you can see
Suddenly, it’s not so easy

This life, chaotic and quick
We struggle to keep all of our secrets
But my truth keeps me bold against the grey

But every time you look around
Hearing everyone’s sounds
And then someone comes and makes you write it all down
And when reflections are all that you can see
Suddenly, it’s not so easy

And now you’re all alone and ideas explode and they’re all your own
Now wouldn’t that be something
So I incinerate what I’ve learned to shake it up
But it’s not so easy
And now you’re all alone and ideas explode and they’re all your own
Now wouldn’t that be something
So I incinerate what I’ve learned to shake it up
But it’s not so easy